I think back. It's not easy to be semi-retired. There's always some self doubt.
What if this, what if that...
If only I had...
And I think... Where would I be if I didn't leave my job 3-4 years back.
I'd probably be in my old job, I used to go to work around 7+ to have a slow cup of coffee. Work til 6 and leave relatively on time.
I'd probably be earning... $12k? Maybe... Not sure.
I'd have gained more weight. That's for sure.
My AUM would definitely be more cushy.
I don't know if I would be traveling every 4 months. Cos my wife is now traveling so often, she probably won't want to be traveling much for leisure.
Thinking back... It doesnt sound so bad.
And yet, when I was working, it seemed so unbearable.
And then I look at my colleagues who were with me at that time. They've all moved on to better positions. More money, kids... Etc...
And I look at myself. Idling, floating around. Getting free stuff. Traveling... Getting bored of travel...
I'm not living that bad a lifestyle...
It's just different.
And yet, there's this nagging feeling... Cos this lifestyle is so abnormal that it's hard to define.
So hard to benchmark.
And yet... From another point of view. I'm living a dream. Retired young, travel around, machiam like holiday every few weeks. Eating for free most of the time. Most stuffs I can get for free. I even have upgraded coffee to drink, better than what my cheapo self would allow myself to buy even if I was working.
What's there to really complain about?
Was my previous lifestyle better?
Why do I even look back?
And yet my mind tends to wander and I think about my old life every once in a while. And I wonder how things would have been if I was still working.
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