I'm sooooo bored. Like I always say that there's always something to do when I'm retired. But now I'm so bored on the first day of my leave. How will I live when I'm finally retired.
Ok that's not the whole story. I've noticed this about myself sometime back. When I'm still working and take leave, leave is really precious. Rest time is precious so I'll like loaf around and just watch TV and drink coffee. I'll also try to go out and play and enjoy my leave. Else it won't be considered taking a break and actually being on leave. So currently, the value of my free time is quite high cos I don't have many days of leave and I don't have full control of my time. So taking leave is really precious.
However, I have been unemployed previously before. During those days when I had nothing to do, I never felt the preciousness of my time. I could relax, watch TV, drink coffee as well. I could do something today or maybe tomorrow or whatever day I felt like doing it. I also will do things which I don't particularly like to do but have to do for health reasons, like exercise... Sounds confusing?
Let me phrase it in another way.
Currently, when working, free time is precious. I don't have much to waste. If I have any free time (aka leave), I will want to maximize the happiness I get from it. So I'll plan my days out, going on holidays, enjoying myself, relaxing, etc etc. If I do something which I don't really like to do, I'll feel like I wasted my free time since I currently have so little of it. Mainly only on weekends and some few days of leave a year. So I won't waste my free time doing things I don't like, example, exercising, dieting, etc. I want to enjoy my free time doing happy things. (I don't really like exercising.) So I'll rather be bored than to exercise cos at least I feel like I'm relaxing.
On the other hand, if I had all the free time in the world, retirement, I would not need the relaxing time. Well everyday would be relaxing time. I'll draw up a new routine when that happens. I'll exercise more and cut my weight, etc etc. Free time after retirement would not be as precious and I would be more willing to do things which I didn't like but I had to do. Example, exercising. I don't like to do it. But I gotta do it eventually as I'm not in the best of shape currently. But I'll prefer to leave that til I'm retired.
Simply put, using exercise as the example for now, I don't want to do the chores when my free time is precious. I want to have fun instead. When free time becomes not very precious, I'll complete my chores. Of course hopefully, I'll still be healthy enough by then to reverse the clock. Cos at the rate I'm eating and slouching around. My heart's turning unhealthy and the belly bulge isn't getting any smaller. Hopefully, I'll be able to retire soon and do all the chores which I don't want to do but eventually have to do.
How about you? Do you have things you always put off til another time? If your free time too precious for you to do those things which you know you have to do but don't feel like doing currently cos it's a chore? Do you think the same? Or do you think that I'm just giving myself an excuse not to exercise and be healthy? Am I just lazy? Although during my 2 years of unemployment, I did lose weight and had a healthier lifestyle. But maybe I should start now? My rationale is... I'm already not excited about work in the morning for 5 days a week. I don't want to be not excited during my free time after work and on weekends. That would be such a sad life to me for now.
May be sometime in the future... All these will go away :) I know they will. I've already experienced that for a short period sometime early in my life. I hope return back to that phase in my life again soon.
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