For the more regular readers, most of you know that my wife and I are able to pay off our housing loan anytime. It has been this way since many years back.
I never really thought about the effect of this until only recently, due to me getting involved in freegan living.
You see... There is really nothing left to do. Nothing much to be stressed about.
Our biggest commitment has been settled.
Our biggest monthly expenses is our allowance to our parents and our insurance payments.
The car is a part of her work. If she changes job, the car will go. So I don't really count that as a normal expense.
Unless kids come along, which we aren't planning for, there isn't anything much more to think or stress about.
So now with most of our other expenses settled... There isn't really much to think about.
It's somewhat liberating and yet stressful. The thought that... Am I missing something??? What's wrong with me? Everything in life is so simple. Is there something wrong?
And it is stressful, I'm stressed that I'm not stressed like everyone else.
After I settled all the basic needs and cos I don't have much desires. I don't go around unnecessarily buying stuff and getting into other forms of commitments, like a bigger car or expensive hobbies, etc.
So I look around me and my friends and family members or neighbours. And I try to see what commitments they have.
Children... A bigger car, a desire to upgrade to a better house, a business to maintain.
Of course. This is not wrong. Anyone should do whatever they want.
And yet, I wonder. How many people are looking for happiness over the next hill? And when they cross the hill, they think happiness is probably over the next hill, etc etc. The idea that, there must be something missing that's why they aren't happy or contented.
And I think, many people fall into this way of thinking. That life and happiness and contentment is like a checklist. I need a big house, big car, nice watch to be happy. If I already got a big car, and I'm still not happy, that means either the car isn't big enough or something else is missing.
Based on my own personal experience. I feel the most free now. When there's nothing left to do. Anything that I do is a choice. I could sit at home and play video games the whole day. Or help with food collection for charities, or whatever I want that interests me.
Then comes the people who are going to call me a bum... Oh well. Can't do anything about that.
So I wondered why did I feel stress? Cos basically it comes from within me. I came down to the answer that. Cos I was doing something abnormal. And being abnormal is a stress. Cos everyone else is living a regular life. And there's also a fear that I made a mistake.
But yet deep down, I know that this is the way life should be. Work, items, stuff... These are all man made. It is all part of the system. The matrix.
All we have in life is around 80+ years. And we are supposed to enjoy as much of these years as possible. So once we have gotten all the basic stuff settled, what's left is to enjoy ourselves.
People can enjoy themselves by consuming more, or they can enjoy themselves by doing free stuff. More often than not, I realize people like to spend money to enjoy themselves. Resulting in working 10 hours to enjoy 1 hour. Where's the logic in that?
Isn't it more logical to work 1 hour and enjoy for 10 hours?
Well, most readers won't end up in such a situation. It IS pretty extreme. Although I do hope that more people get to experience this kind of stress. Cos it really feels different from the usual stress that most people talk about.
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I never really thought about the effect of this until only recently, due to me getting involved in freegan living.
You see... There is really nothing left to do. Nothing much to be stressed about.
Our biggest commitment has been settled.
Our biggest monthly expenses is our allowance to our parents and our insurance payments.
The car is a part of her work. If she changes job, the car will go. So I don't really count that as a normal expense.
Unless kids come along, which we aren't planning for, there isn't anything much more to think or stress about.
So now with most of our other expenses settled... There isn't really much to think about.
It's somewhat liberating and yet stressful. The thought that... Am I missing something??? What's wrong with me? Everything in life is so simple. Is there something wrong?
And it is stressful, I'm stressed that I'm not stressed like everyone else.
After I settled all the basic needs and cos I don't have much desires. I don't go around unnecessarily buying stuff and getting into other forms of commitments, like a bigger car or expensive hobbies, etc.
So I look around me and my friends and family members or neighbours. And I try to see what commitments they have.
Children... A bigger car, a desire to upgrade to a better house, a business to maintain.
Of course. This is not wrong. Anyone should do whatever they want.
And yet, I wonder. How many people are looking for happiness over the next hill? And when they cross the hill, they think happiness is probably over the next hill, etc etc. The idea that, there must be something missing that's why they aren't happy or contented.
And I think, many people fall into this way of thinking. That life and happiness and contentment is like a checklist. I need a big house, big car, nice watch to be happy. If I already got a big car, and I'm still not happy, that means either the car isn't big enough or something else is missing.
Based on my own personal experience. I feel the most free now. When there's nothing left to do. Anything that I do is a choice. I could sit at home and play video games the whole day. Or help with food collection for charities, or whatever I want that interests me.
Then comes the people who are going to call me a bum... Oh well. Can't do anything about that.
So I wondered why did I feel stress? Cos basically it comes from within me. I came down to the answer that. Cos I was doing something abnormal. And being abnormal is a stress. Cos everyone else is living a regular life. And there's also a fear that I made a mistake.
But yet deep down, I know that this is the way life should be. Work, items, stuff... These are all man made. It is all part of the system. The matrix.
All we have in life is around 80+ years. And we are supposed to enjoy as much of these years as possible. So once we have gotten all the basic stuff settled, what's left is to enjoy ourselves.
People can enjoy themselves by consuming more, or they can enjoy themselves by doing free stuff. More often than not, I realize people like to spend money to enjoy themselves. Resulting in working 10 hours to enjoy 1 hour. Where's the logic in that?
Isn't it more logical to work 1 hour and enjoy for 10 hours?
Well, most readers won't end up in such a situation. It IS pretty extreme. Although I do hope that more people get to experience this kind of stress. Cos it really feels different from the usual stress that most people talk about.
<<PREVIOUS POST // NEXT POST>>
Did you like this post? If so, could you "blanjah" me 1/4 cup of my morning coffee pls.
Many thanks for continuing to come to this blog to read my posts.
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